This master essay weaves together poetry, imagery and prose in a desire to extend, as well as discuss my artistic practice. The texts in the essay are meant to bring the reader closer to the subjects, aspects, and background of the artistic work that is otherwise based on visual experiences. My intention with the text - as well as in my art - is to voice the experiences many feminine subjects have of night, as a place of freedom as well as a place of fear. Night, in this sense, is both a site of excitement, presenting charged possibilities where these subjects can express their love and desire towards each other. At the same time, night is often an environment where these subjects are met with hostility from others. The feminine are both associated with night and excluded from it, desired and detested, and it is in this potent nowhere-land, or, double-land, my work and my writing takes place.